I sometimes wish É. could understand better what's coming so she'd be as excited as we are about it. I do point at my belly and tell her about this baby sibling of hers but she just stares a bit then go on doing whatever she's doing at the moment.

I'm getting a bit anxious about everything: the changes, the delivery, the stay at the hospital while É.'s at home, the ache, the mess... I feel  a bit, let's be honest, a lot overwhelmed by everything surrounding me and I cry often thinking of how much still needs to be done. Which is mostly my own fault because I'm disorganised and keep having projects I don't finish...

I've starting throwing things away but if I'm honest again, it's such a slow process and there's so much to do that I feel I've done nothing at all. My maternity bag isn't even ready... Bébé2's clothes aren't even washed... Let's not talk about the ironing plank or the huuuuge mess that is the office or the pantry...

Let's see how this week goes and hopefully, by next week, my faith in me and the things I can do will come back and be more positive. A change of weather (more sun, LESS rain and grey skies) could definitely help!

É & bébé2: little feet snuggling tiny feet...

Shot 8/02/2016 on a iPhone5 - edited with AColorStory

 This photo project is linked to the beautiful 52-project of Jodi on Practising Simplicity.

Twice this week has Élodie hurt herself while I was on Skype with friends and family (once she was in my arms). It got me a little more cuddly and careful towards her; hopefully it'll get better but for now all I want to do is protect her. I know many more falls and bobos will come her way, though I want avoid the unnecessary ones.

She's been moving a lot more and can stand without holding onto something for a few seconds, it's great. i can't wait to see her do all sorts of new things. She's so fun!
She's been asking for music every day and every hour when she's awake and she just jumps with joy when I go and press play on her favorite children CDs. It's amazing to see and I think she already loves music as much as her Papa and I.

É: this smile and these sparkling eyes, they make me so happy

Shot 25/01/2016 on a iPhone5 - 1/30 - ƒ/2.4 - ISO 50

bébé2: entering the third trimester

Shot 25/01/2016 on a iPhone6s - 1/1326 - ƒ/2.2 - ISO 25

 This photo project is linked to the beautiful 52-project of Jodi on Practising Simplicity.

Getting back into our normal routine has been such a blessing: I'm feeling less tired and am more patient and Élodie's smiles and laughs are getting more frequent and it makes me feel so much better.

I think our time with my family was such a treat and it made me realise even more how much I really miss them: the fun, the drama and being around them, taking part of their daily lives. I know I chose to follow y heart and live far to be with my love, but sometimes, I wish we could just share our time between here and there, near my family and friends, half of the year. It'd be great.

É.: mesmerised in front of this growing belly
bébé2: keeping me awake while having fun moving around

Shot 21/01/2015 on a iPhone 6s

 This photo project is linked to the beautiful 52-project of Jodi on Practising Simplicity.

The beginning of the year has been tiring and a lot of tears have been shed, mostly on my part. Getting back to a routine after super fun Holidays with my family has been tricky and tiredness got in the way of all things, again mostly on my part.

I've realised that bébé2 is going to be here before I know it and I've got hundreds of things to do/finish/send/prepare and I think I've felt very overwhelmed by it all.
Élodie has started being fussy while breastfeeding and we're going to try and give her a bottle before going to bed and see how it goes. Breastfeeding while pregnant can be very challenging and there are times when it hurts a LOT. I can't really complain because it only hurt a few times until now.

Update: First night, Élodie drank 90ml and it was so great. The next day she only drank 30ml but I kept enthusiastic and hopeful. The next three evenings, she wouldn't take the bottle. At all. We'll try again later...

É: sleepy baby took a late afternoon nap

Shot 15/01/2016 on a iPhone6s - 1/46 - ƒ/2.2 - ISO 25

bébé2: 26 weeks

Shot 12/01/2016 on a iPhone6s

 This photo project is linked to the beautiful 52-project of Jodi on Practising Simplicity.

January has started on a different note than last year: Élodie kept us awake for about 3 hours, crying her eyes out. We didn't know what was wrong and it was difficult to put her back to sleep and then the next day we saw a tooth had come through! ha!

I can't believe how much she's grown and how much my love for her grows each day, every day, I didn't know it was possible to love someone more and more and more every day.

É: had her first taste of the Three Kings' pie and got the fève

Shot 7/01/2016 on a iPhone6s - 1/17 - ƒ/2.2 - ISO 200

bébé2: the only shot I have of the belly (raw, no edit)

Shot 7/01/2016 on a iPhone6s - 1/19 - ƒ/2.2 - ISO 25

 This photo project is linked to the beautiful 52-project of Jodi on Practising Simplicity.

This weekend I had the pleasure to shoot our friends Andres & Kristien's wedding and it was so great and magical and so beautiful.

We brought É. along since I'm still breastfeeding (and let's be honest, we haven't let her with anyone before, so it's kinda scary): she was such a trooper, she did so well, only cried once when she saw her dinner and couldn't have any just yet because it was way too hot.

I worked from 1pm to a little after midnight. She only slept half an hour about 3/4 times during the day, but it didn't bother her too much. She played a lot, cooed a whole lot and even sang a few songs. She even briefly slept while the DJ started playing. I'm really proud of her.

I was afraid of how she'd react and if she'd be fussy, especially since it was a long day for her but everybody said she was very cute and well-behaved and this was a relief.

I'm not sure I'll do it again though, it's hard work. Peter did a wonderful job taking care of her during the day but in the evening, I took over (+ the photography job) and my back still hurts from carrying her around (and maybe the fact I slipped on her food and fell during dinner didn't help either, ha!). We'll see.

É.: she can fall asleep anywhere if we hold her close first

Shot 10/10/2015 on a Canon 70D - 1/40 - ƒ/5.0 - ISO 250

 This photo project is linked to the beautiful 52-project of Jodi on Practising Simplicity.