Today, I feel pretty bad about this whole baby thing.

I'm not even sure if I want a baby anymore.

My stomach hurts just thinking about it.

I received news about J's ultra sound and she seems so excited. I wish I could be with her. Well, I am, but still, it's not the same kind of excitement. I am happy for her but I still feel so empty.

I guess I just need to reassure myself that my turn will come, one day.